Saturday, October 4, 2014

My PArt History in Life.

Human beings are deeply trusting. While many of us soon learn to develop suspicions and misgivings, our natural immediate inclination is to believe what we are informed, regardless of who is telling us. This is what makes us venerable. It is also what makes us grateful, wonderful beings, inspirational, and extraordinary. We live in a compiles, clever society.

A few of the older ones stop trusting and believing and this is where we stop experiencing life. We may have many good reasons, to question the information that we are given, there is still place for benefit of doubt on that level. Do not give up trusting as the person who you decide not to trust maybe the innocent one who ends up the loyalist friend you will ever have and to have them in your life is an experience you don't want to miss.

We could choose to create a long list of all the things we are unable to do..
we could begin what ever our current circumstances prohibit us from doing...add to the activities we have never been able to participate in and then .......you know what?

I am tired of this exercise already, arn't you?What is the point? It is not just futile, it is counterproductive.

You/ We should and can be looking instead at what is possible...

This list is so much more, longer and it is worth giving our time to as it is really serious consideration and it gives you a happier outlook on what you have achieved and what is achievable with us...

To think too much can cloud the real organ and that is the heart.. that pumps life into us beings and show you more than the mind can ever know..

Interesting thoughts...
Then again, you are the only person who can choose their way of life.. just make sure you have all the points and all the views before you judge another as you could be judging yourself.. Can you judge another when you cannot judge yourself, Really?

Do you also know that when you give your time to others without payment ..in the eye of the law you are worthless as you are not earning an income...Fascinating that this has happened..
Specially when everyone is calling for volunteers...

What else is there to be written? Love, Trust, caring, compassion, belief, your responsibility, your word and your integrity is always being judged within the first 2 seconds of introduction.. Why do people judge covers and never bother to know what is inside.. A business man could be a child rapist and the old turn person, could be the one to trust first...the well dressed man looks trusting and well off... then maybe not...see what is there and know what is on the inside..

I trusted and I still do and I know I am vulnerable, but I believe in people, their talents, their being, their love and them selves, not what the outside looks like.. There are always rough diamonds and there are always false diamonds who look like diamonds but are not..then again you have to choose who you like or not.. just thoughts of someone who knows nothing about your lives but everything about mine..

My father tried to kill me at the age of 8 years old.. then a man stepped in front of me to protect me and he ended up being stabbed on my behalf.. he died.. truth is there.(He did try to do that on many occasions, try to end my life as well as my mothers, he was not himself when that happened, even scary as it was, I Loved him).
My father was in WWII and saw many things and sometimes when he was angry or drunk... he would have flash backs...I knew this..

I cannot take back what he did but I understand where he came from... he knew many Hollywood stars and they were great friends with bonds which are never broken... And with all the knowing and the pain which came with my father, I LOVED him for who he was.. Even in danger to myself, I cared and loved him... many thought I should not.. but you see it is when people are in need, it is when you should be there for them, no matter what because I was his daughter and I Really Loved him and could not assist him through his pain, but be there when he wanted me.. Same thing with my mother.. I LOVED THEM AND I Took the time to understand them even when I was a child..

Sharing this with you seems pointless unless I believed it would assist you to expand and understand..
the only time I had great hatred in my heart was when My Niece was murdered...And the man who did this hung himself in Campbelltown Court house Jail.. in 1988 October..
I have seen now that he was ill, on drugs and two personalities.. bipolar and his mother was found as the cause of it through the glebe court.. There is so much more and in-depth to all these things. Yes. Real life is interesting.. and surreal. There is calm and storms and non are controlled. You have the choices to make. Make them and then if that does not work for you choose another choice.

You can move on from great pain and you can trust, life is fascinating, interesting and confronting.. And there is great love there, if you allow trust in your life with communication..


I could and maybe seem to play a victim, although you judge me already. I am really a survivor.


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Darkness and shaddows

Darkness in my friend, the light shows me what ways I am to travel...choices
i make but the warmth of my love keeps me warm at night..
Believing in you...believing in me...

The sense of propriety. Is it merely an illusion?

Want to know something? Mmm

Want to know something amazing.

Life is empty and meaningless...

How is that you ask?

We each place our own meaning on our lives...mmm..

Interesting? Yes/no?

Since birth, all the negative words stuck to us...like glue...family, friends strangers...all of the so called jokes which others found funny at your expanse...stuck to us.

Our bodies absorbed it all...

Yet those positive words were overwhelmed but those negative opinions, jokes...arguments...

Can you give yourself positive feedback or it is negative?

You neither exists beyond your own imagination...how’s that?

When you were a child you were praised for smiling or Burping and scolded for crying, throwing food on the floor, tormenting the Animals, not doing your homework, etc.

Every negative word.. was introduced to us by...get this.. you'll love it...your family.. your friends.. who by the way. . made jokes .. about all of it..mmmm

Communication is the greatest key to a loving and understanding relationship...building that love and trust.. taking it for granted, is taking life for granted. opening your mouth and saying what you really feel, admiringly might hurt the first time, but it tell people where you truly stand. Lies give false hope and you caused it. No one is at blame except you. Taking responsibility for your own actions is the greatest thing and you established your own integrity. You word then has meaning and a bond to it.

Laugh...do you realise that each name calling, blame etc....as you were growing up...Stuck to you like glue?
This comes up in you and me every emotional moment.
yes.. every emotional moment..

You placed important meaning to them...you interpreted them...into your mind...one way or another...they stuck to you...and many never realise it...

mmmmm..Interesting...

Well what else were you to do? After hearing all that while You were growing up...you lost yourselves, including me, you were given Feedback by others on your movements, knowledge and emotions, we all grew up

With those in placed by others.

Then there is a continuous drone of gurus telling us about  we should feel about ourselves. We are too enlightened and yet we are Clueless...including them.

Mother Nature controls us. We are one in 5000 mammals within

A larger group of 1.7 million known species. We might be more advanced than

That of a monkey, that doesn’t always translate into brilliance.

Relatively speaking, of course we make choices every day.

You choose your hairstyle, your brand of toothpaste and toppings. In
absolute sense,

However, this is all bitter sweet, your genes and environmental conditioning

That are doing the choosing for you... there is not a you but from the
natural

Building blocks

We are informed of this and that, how to preserve and talk, what is right
and what is wrong in our lives. So, much so that people get depressed and committee
suicide. That is a long term solution to a short term problem.

Choose Love in the real meaning. Not judging others, allowing others to be
who they are meant to be. Creators of their own lives. Allow them Joy and
laughter, don’t torment them with wisecracks and smart remarks as the only
person who is really affected in that is you. People won’t want to be around
you for that long. Short term friendships, with lasting effects.

The source of so much of your unhappiness is entrenched

Belief that we are choosing our behaviour, often choosing poorly. This
belief

Is the stone in your shoe as you hobble through life?

Drop the distressing theory of human behaviour and replace

It with a new one:" Everyone’s doing the best they can with what life
has given them."

Straight forward, compact enough to slap on the refrigerator

As a reminder, and at least as plausible as any theory you have dreamed up
so Far. With that irritation stone removed from that shoe, you discover
lightness in your step. You’ll stroll through life feeling grateful for what you have been given and sympathy towards those who were given less. Freed from bondage of judgement, you will live in perpetual state of forgiveness.

Adopt the idea that we are all doing the best we can with what we have in our lives now...and each day.

Give respect and acknowledgements for the great things in life. Let the other stuff on the side and grow your life to what it is.. Create your lives, embrace others and empower everyone in trust, friendships and love. Forget the
other stuff.. don't get crazy.. respect and honour your word, deeds and truth.

Enjoy life and not place others under, praise their skills and their
abilities, then your a leader of millions ==

 

Faith in ME

Have a little faith in me
When The road is dark and you can no longer see..
Then my love with give a small spake.
have a little faith me..
When tears your cry all you can believe in  just give these loven arms a try
Have a little faith me..
I been loving for all this long time..
without expecting anything in return...
asking back in kind, just a little faith in me..
As time is our friend as i hold you up when you have a little faith in me..
Sometimes there seems there are so many thing we cannot control.. earthquakes, news, people
There are many more of those things which we can.
Like forgiveness, second chances,  fresh starts
The one thing that changes the world from a lonely place to beautiful place is love
Love in any of it’s forms gives us hope

THERE IS NO DANGER WHEN YOU FALL IN LOVE,IS IT DANGEROUS FOR ME TO FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU.
When you took one took, One look at me and in that moment...
You felt deep inside of you the bonds,
It was then, I was overwhelmed with pride.
Your mine tonight...
You’re eyes are bright,
In your heart is light.
In the dead of this night,
Just hold me tight.
Stars and I are here tonight under the crescent moon..
.Kissing you wet lips...
Caressing you under the crest of the New Moon.
The love with us blooms.
Dawn in breaking the early morning is calling for you,
The early morning sings for you.
There is no other place on earth that I would rather be..
.It is here,
Where I am meant to be...
Never did I find the words before.
There are many things which I want to share with you.
Your love for me is DANGEROUS..
.I am in danger of falling in love with you...
Your love for me is dangerous..
.Early morning is crying for you...
Just like morning dew...
Your cheeky face...
As the morning light shines for you...
Here we are,
Just you and me,
What is it when you’re stuck,
When you walk away.
This is a game where we need not play
.Don't try to fix me,
Cause you’re in pain.
When you're giving me you time
 As you are like a broken arrow..
.What do you do when you heart is in two places.
Like a broken arrow...
Don't keep pushing me away...
Even when you know, Your love is real,
When your heart is in two places,
You feel love... even though we are worlds apart...
This is a great love and it needs to start
.Like an arrow hitting us in our heart.
This love for me is dangerous,
As I am in danger of falling in Love with you.
Sonia F Stevens Copyrighted 2011

 
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Who Do You Believe?

Who do you believe?
When people say one thing and do another.

I hear you call so far away.
...
Where the eagle and  I fly against the wind.
When I am on my own, deep inside my head.
Sometimes it is hard to believe or who to believe.
I hear you calling from so far away.
My heart is of the eagle on the wings of the air.
My heart flies with you and life has not compare.
You fly so free in the wind.
I wonder why I am there with my eagle flying.
My heart is calling when he cries.

 I hear you call from so far away,
You fly so free
I can hear the ancient cries,
From the songs and faces in the dreams
I think of you and the eagle flies.
Deep in the night you take my breath away
The dreams bring you to me and it is there I am one

Two different worlds iwithn my very soul.
Bringing life for others to know.
I will never give you up as you are part of my life and soul.
~ Sonia F Stevens ©copyright 2012
 
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Story.. real

No a small story of my past.
 
The past years I have assisted in establishing over 450+ projects, for people from nothing.
I know I said all those things which I personally want in my life..it is something i need to keep my sanity at times to want those things.
I am a female as you know, I have spinal situation,
I created my life over again by re education of myself in... Screen and... Media, Production, Music Business, Business , Pr and recording.

Te past ten thirteen year, I built up a network thought my own research of over90,000 Entertainment families. Not one cent came from anywhere.. As no one believed in me.
I have done 19 music videos for others , written two books, write blogs and empower many people. I have not been in the 'Limelight'. I taken photographs on many things since I was given my first box brownie..at the age a four.

I was ready and writing at the age of 2.

I sent over 100,000 books to the pacific for the communities over there, and gave that area of network to Rotary clubs in Sydney when they took it over in 2007. I established all that from not having a penny to my name.

Everything I have done was from nothing, no money, no one behind me.
I wanted someone to love me for me.. so I went on line where I met you.

Now I am clarifying that I know what it is like to be well off and also when you have nothing.
I want to play ,, enjoy life with you.

I care for people and established many things in those past years since my divorce in 2003.

I grew up all over the place and met many people, well known and not so.. I was raped in 2004 and had major surgery then and in 2011.

I assisted many people, yet when I need to be looked after..no one came..only three people out of the thousands ...

I am not a celebrity, or a well known star,, of business person.
When I worked in Telecom I was in fiancĂ© and accounting  and handled million to the new infrastructure of cabling in and around Sydney and optical cable from NSW to Victoria.

The store guys nicked named me boots, as I was the one woman who went out in the field into their domain and seen how they worked, I even used a forklift. . hence the nick name 'boots'.

I have been with many artists, picking them up and empowering them to create their passions and dreams, admitting I have lost a few, through suicides.

I tread everyone with respect no matter who they are.
I give food to the street people when they are begging..as that will fill their stomachs up or a warm blanket ,,,
When I am able to do so.

I want a life where love is there for me. So I can curl up and just be.
I wish you could understand all this. We can achieve many dreams in our lives. We can achieve a lot out of our turmoil. What stops us..really,, is our own barriers which we place up. And we all started building those barriers since childhood...  As we get older, we forgot that they are there.. only when we look within ourselves occasionally we come across them... No one placed them there for us.. We Placed them there long long ago.
 
 
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poetry

Poetry
My Imagination My Words of WisdomSharing a part of my Life with you.Just Words put together by my FeelingRead them,Enjoy them.Feel them They are shared with you. May the clouds part their ways, Let the rays of hope shine on your soul.

May the winds through time find gentlenessTo guild you to where you go.(I am the lighthouse keeper, the light s...hows the obstacles. I also am the keeper of the bridge over time, I warn of obstacles.My stairs are circular,You’re free to pass and be safe Or stay)Your life is clear, so have no fear.May the winds of time take you to your divine

There is no time for me.So let all things be. Let my light show you,  If you cross the bridge..You may do so with out the charges of life,Cost to you is nothing. For I will gladly pay the bills of your time. 
So you can meet your divine.Knowing you will not be mine.

By Sonia F Stevens Copyriighted

Death is not the End

Death is not the End


By Sonia Frances
...Stevens©



Even though your body is not near


Now that your life is gone,


With a single sheared tear.


You’re presents and your human touch


It is what I miss of you so very much.




Even thought you have now departed


You soul of light has just taken to flight.


I will always miss you


Each and every single night


I understand you’re now a soul of light


You have just started you’re new flight.


Copyright©2006 by Sonia Frances Stevens

Crystalsingers@yahoo.com.au
PO Box 174
Southgate Sylvania NSW 2224
 
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