My PArt History in Life.

Human beings are deeply trusting. While many of us soon learn to develop suspicions and misgivings, our natural immediate inclination is to believe what we are informed, regardless of who is telling us. This is what makes us venerable. It is also what makes us grateful, wonderful beings, inspirational, and extraordinary. We live in a compiles, clever society.

A few of the older ones stop trusting and believing and this is where we stop experiencing life. We may have many good reasons, to question the information that we are given, there is still place for benefit of doubt on that level. Do not give up trusting as the person who you decide not to trust maybe the innocent one who ends up the loyalist friend you will ever have and to have them in your life is an experience you don't want to miss.

We could choose to create a long list of all the things we are unable to do..
we could begin what ever our current circumstances prohibit us from doing...add to the activities we have never been able to participate in and then .......you know what?

I am tired of this exercise already, arn't you?What is the point? It is not just futile, it is counterproductive.

You/ We should and can be looking instead at what is possible...

This list is so much more, longer and it is worth giving our time to as it is really serious consideration and it gives you a happier outlook on what you have achieved and what is achievable with us...

To think too much can cloud the real organ and that is the heart.. that pumps life into us beings and show you more than the mind can ever know..

Interesting thoughts...
Then again, you are the only person who can choose their way of life.. just make sure you have all the points and all the views before you judge another as you could be judging yourself.. Can you judge another when you cannot judge yourself, Really?

Do you also know that when you give your time to others without payment ..in the eye of the law you are worthless as you are not earning an income...Fascinating that this has happened..
Specially when everyone is calling for volunteers...

What else is there to be written? Love, Trust, caring, compassion, belief, your responsibility, your word and your integrity is always being judged within the first 2 seconds of introduction.. Why do people judge covers and never bother to know what is inside.. A business man could be a child rapist and the old turn person, could be the one to trust first...the well dressed man looks trusting and well off... then maybe not...see what is there and know what is on the inside..

I trusted and I still do and I know I am vulnerable, but I believe in people, their talents, their being, their love and them selves, not what the outside looks like.. There are always rough diamonds and there are always false diamonds who look like diamonds but are not..then again you have to choose who you like or not.. just thoughts of someone who knows nothing about your lives but everything about mine..

My father tried to kill me at the age of 8 years old.. then a man stepped in front of me to protect me and he ended up being stabbed on my behalf.. he died.. truth is there.(He did try to do that on many occasions, try to end my life as well as my mothers, he was not himself when that happened, even scary as it was, I Loved him).
My father was in WWII and saw many things and sometimes when he was angry or drunk... he would have flash backs...I knew this..

I cannot take back what he did but I understand where he came from... he knew many Hollywood stars and they were great friends with bonds which are never broken... And with all the knowing and the pain which came with my father, I LOVED him for who he was.. Even in danger to myself, I cared and loved him... many thought I should not.. but you see it is when people are in need, it is when you should be there for them, no matter what because I was his daughter and I Really Loved him and could not assist him through his pain, but be there when he wanted me.. Same thing with my mother.. I LOVED THEM AND I Took the time to understand them even when I was a child..

Sharing this with you seems pointless unless I believed it would assist you to expand and understand..
the only time I had great hatred in my heart was when My Niece was murdered...And the man who did this hung himself in Campbelltown Court house Jail.. in 1988 October..
I have seen now that he was ill, on drugs and two personalities.. bipolar and his mother was found as the cause of it through the glebe court.. There is so much more and in-depth to all these things. Yes. Real life is interesting.. and surreal. There is calm and storms and non are controlled. You have the choices to make. Make them and then if that does not work for you choose another choice.

You can move on from great pain and you can trust, life is fascinating, interesting and confronting.. And there is great love there, if you allow trust in your life with communication..

I could and maybe seem to play a victim, although you judge me already. I am really a survivor.

I found that who I am is unimportant. What I do is more important. Inspire creative passions which you were born to achieve and be, is!

Story.. real

No a small story of my past.
 

The past years I have assisted in establishing over 450+ projects, for people from nothing.
I know I said all those things which I personally want in my life..it is something i need to keep my sanity at times to want those things.
I am a female as you know, I have spinal situation,
I created my life over again by re education of myself in... Screen and... Media, Production, Music Business, Business , Pr and recording.

Te past ten thirteen year, I built up a network thought my own research of over90,000 Entertainment families. Not one cent came from anywhere.. As no one believed in me.

I have done 19 music videos for others , written two books, write blogs and empower many people. I have not been in the 'Limelight'. I taken photographs on many things since I was given my first box brownie..at the age a four.

I was ready and writing at the age of 2.

I sent over 100,000 books to the pacific for the communities over there, and gave that area of network to Rotary clubs in Sydney when they took it over in 2007. I established all that from not having a penny to my name.

Everything I have done was from nothing, no money, no one behind me.

I wanted someone to love me for me.. so I went on line where I met you.

Now I am clarifying that I know what it is like to be well off and also when you have nothing.

I want to play ,, enjoy life with you.

I care for people and established many things in those past years since my divorce in 2003.

I grew up all over the place and met many people, well known and not so.. I was raped in 2004 and had major surgery then and in 2011.

I assisted many people, yet when I need to be looked after..no one came..only three people out of the thousands ...

I am not a celebrity, or a well known star,, of business person.

When I worked in Telecom I was in fiancé and accounting  and handled million to the new infrastructure of cabling in and around Sydney and optical cable from NSW to Victoria.

The store guys nicked named me boots, as I was the one woman who went out in the field into their domain and seen how they worked, I even used a forklift. . hence the nick name 'boots'.

I have been with many artists, picking them up and empowering them to create their passions and dreams, admitting I have lost a few, through suicides.

I tread everyone with respect no matter who they are.

I give food to the street people when they are begging..as that will fill their stomachs up or a warm blanket ,,,

When I am able to do so.

I want a life where love is there for me. So I can curl up and just be.

I wish you could understand all this. We can achieve many dreams in our lives. We can achieve a lot out of our turmoil. What stops us..really,, is our own barriers which we place up. And we all started building those barriers since childhood...  As we get older, we forgot that they are there.. only when we look within ourselves occasionally we come across them... No one placed them there for us.. We Placed them there long long ago.

 

 

I found that who I am is unimportant. What I do is more important. Inspire creative passions which you were born to achieve and be, is!

people with a twist.

The Past is now in Past. Completion of that past is always with you. When you have done that, the world opens up and your movement forward begins with ease as it is no longer a struggle.

 Some people like to inform you in private that your in control and they are doing other things and have no time for that area, then turn around in public and slam...m you down.. What you do is, you stand. You walk away from them and be proud of who you are, as you have integrity and they don't. They just proven their word means nothing and yours means everything.. especially when people know the truth.

Your the one who has standards, your the one who never needs to prove a thing. Your the one who has gain the respect which no amount of money or influences can buy that respect.

The Lesson in life Great Philosphy for the Human Mind

 When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 Beers. A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. ...He then asked the students if the jar was full.

They agreed that it was.

 The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full.. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two Beers from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand.

The students laughed.. 'Now,' said the professor as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things---your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favourite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car..

The sand is everything else---the small stuff. 'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Spend time with your children. Spend time with your parents. Visit with grandparents. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18 holes or ride 30 miles on your bike. Don't screw around with other people on any level, even sexually. There will always be time to clean the house and mow the lawn. Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand. One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the Beer represented. The professor smiled and said, 'I'm glad you asked.' The Beer just shows you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of Beers with a friend, there is no room for cheats and vagabonds in your real life as you need to be creating your life fully without hang ups.